Hey bloggerfolk!
My flirting with the YouTuber lifestyle continues - with a new vlog/storytime/travel show video! Check it out here!
No upload of mine can truly be without its hiccups. I like to use Louie Zong’s music in my videos since he allows small creators to do that sort of thing, but I didn’t realize that an AI artist plagiarizing Louie Zong’s music would copyright strike the video. While this is perhaps the most righteous reason I could have for disputing a copyright strike, it still means the video won’t earn very much. Oh well. Clearly, I don’t make these things to make money… but I hope you enjoy them nonetheless!
Speaking of earning money… how about that job search?
I really thought I would enjoy a couple months away from work but it kinda sucked. Despite having more time than ever for my personal work, it felt like I barely got anything done. It was not the perfect situation I had secretly dreamed it would be. With seemingly infinite time on my hands, it was easier than ever to procrastinate, and yet I judged myself harder for doing so. I realized having a dayjob’s not just about income for me, but also about providing structure, a communal mission, and a level of scarcity to my art time which helps me to treat it with greater respect. The grass does always seem greener on the other side, further reinforcing what I’ve known for a while - that my artwork doesn’t necessarily suffer from having to sit alongside another job, and in fact, can benefit from it.
Jobs, however, have been hard to find. Not just in the entertainment sphere, which seems historically dry everywhere, but also in the non-art space, which surprised me. I had foolishly assumed that with my experience I’d at least be able to land the sort of jobs high schoolers get. But even that proved difficult. Thankfully, I was able to land a job at the one place that offered me an interview, the Well Coffeehouse. I was interested to work in coffee since I’d get to learn a new craft and still be creative as part of the job. I also had this quaint dream of biking to work and smelling like caramelized coffee all the time, although in reality I have always opted to drive and smell more like sweat and dish soap.
While being a barista can mean a lot of things depending on the shop, I’m glad that the Well has proven to care intensely about their coffee and their workers, which has meant I’ve been able to learn a lot and (slowly) get a hold on the finer points of coffee like dialing in a brew and creating latte art (ironically, the part of the job I’m the worse at.) I haven’t worked at any place with this much teamwork and care to set up the next department for success - I really need to take that spirit into my studio animation work!
There’s a narrative here that’s disappointing, where I’ve fallen from my lofty heights, my story ideas sitting on the shelf while I do sweaty work washing dishes. But it only feels that way if I frame it that way. I feel like I’m becoming more independent, free to really do my own thing in animation/YouTube, but also free from animation being the one thing that defines both my personal and professional life. And with limits placed back again on my creative time, I’ve gotten much better at actually using it. Now with this video wrapped I’m working to finish up the script for my new animated show, which means I’ll likely resume project updates and paid subscriptions here. While this year has definitely beat me down, I think I’d lose more by waiting for a better time to make this next project.
So that’s where I’m at! Situated in a new job, learning a new skill, having all kinds of new experiences both at home and abroad. Still dealing with mental health issues (anxietyyyyy) but I’ve made a lot of progress leaving that dark forest behind. I feel like I’m in the middle of whatever episode of life this is, so not there yet, but going somewhere. While things have stabilized somewhat, they by no means feel final. How strange. Will try and keep you updated.
I hope you enjoyed the video and whatever will come next!
-dh
