2024 has been a pain in my behind. With all the graciousness of Dolores Umbridge, it has endeavored to cut me to the core and make an absolute mess of everything. While I’ve felt its talons stab across many areas of my life, I’m here today to eulogize its most recent casualty, which is… my job on The Wingfeather Saga.
Yes, this 2.5 year (can you believe it???) journey has come to its end, or at least its awkward-pause-for-commercial break. It’s a bittersweet time to be suddenly unemployed, since Season 2 is literally about to come out and really turn some heads. But just like the rest of life, in animation great excitement often sits alongside great bummers. None of us got into this job for the stability, we got into this job to tell dang good stories in an incredible medium, or create some dragons. Maybe both.
When I was first told I was being laid off I was disappointed, but also flooded with gratitude for having gotten to be a part of the whole experience of Wingfeather, pretty much from day 1. Wingfeather was my first fulltime job in animation, and they took a huge risk hiring someone with so little experience and even less fashion sense. And not just hiring me, but welcoming into their home, working straight out of the boss’s bonus room for most of my time at the studio. There was a casual, familial air about the place, no doubt reinforced by the fact that legos and cats were a constant feature of the workplace. I was at the studio long enough to see many friends come and go, and each taught me something new. Garrett, how to keep peace and morale up even when things look dire. Justin, how to find smart solutions that respect the team’s effort and time. Clay, how to be positive and helpful even when you feel like being neither. Rebecca, how to go the extra mile to keep work fun, even for the remote team. Dakota, how to create friendships that transcend the workplace. Chris, how to direct cameras and a business. Brock, how to navigate Kidscreen and talk with producers. David, how to cheat death. And so many more who I’d love to include here but I need to finish this post eventually! Wingfeather was a massive educational experience for me, as there really is a lot about animation (especially the business side of it) that you can only learn in a production setting.
The night before my last day was when it really began to hit me - I wasn’t just out of work, but out of a community. I could find new work (and am excited to, see below!) But it’s going to be hard, maybe even impossible to find again the right combination of people and environment like I had on this show. You can’t just replace the spring lunches on the front lawn. The daily descent upon the local coffeeshop, huddling in a tight circle as the baristas, who knew us by name, completed our massive order. And especially, the fact that we were a studio that prayed before meals, where you could talk about your faith openly, and where Christ was a constant. I’m grateful that I’ll still be able to see my coworkers around town and after work, but for all my bohemian, wayfaring aspirations, I’m really gonna miss the consistency of coming into the office on a weekday, being among friends, carrying on whatever inside joke was in vogue, and maybe getting some work done in between.
Yet in this ending there’s a chance for a new beginning, and while I look back in sadness on what has finished, I’ve also got a building excitement for the next door God will open. Throughout the past 2.5 years I’ve dreamed up quite a list of skills, travel, experiences, and jobs I’d like to pursue but simply couldn’t since I was holding down a 9-5. And now I’m free to go after them! There’s whole sides of me I haven’t been able to nurture while being so focused on studio work, especially my interest in animals & the outdoors, and travel & language.
I’m really excited by this opportunity to pivot and to learn more about the world than just how one studio works. Although I may not have the youthful shimmer of a 21-year-old, I’m still at the very beginning of my career and there’s dozens of roads I could take. Sure, it sucks that there aren’t really many animation opportunities in Nashville. Sure, it sucks that the wider animation industry is on fire, bleeding jobs and talent no matter where you live. But, as you’ll know from reading any post written during Summer 2021, I’m the kind of person in love with the idea of potential. I love a map with spaces left to explore. A RPG skill tree with dozens of slots to fill. I like feeling free to enjoy life, run down the rabbit trails, cast out the nets and see what I catch. And now, just like after graduating college, I find myself blessed with an abundance of potential. It really does feel like a chance for a fresh start, although this time I have genuine experience and know sliiiiiightly more what I’m doing. And this time, I hope I’ll be a little more sensitive to the doors God is opening for me. Working at Wingfeather was not the door I was expecting to open in 2021, which caused some confusion and angst at the time - though it’s clear now that it was the exact right place for me. I’m wondering if something like that will happen again, whether that door will open in animation or elsewhere, at a business or something more self-directed. I pray that it might be a door working at a zoo or park, as a director or designer, in Ireland or Nashville. Heck, it could even open at Wingfeather again! Either way, I’m gonna try to be more sensitive and obedient this time, though I’ll probably be just as stubborn as ever. Oh well. Either way, it’s sure to be an adventure.
This has been an incredibly hard past few months, but in this upheaval I see a chance to get some perspective, move beyond my mental burdens, and chart a new start. You’ll surely be seeing some updates to my portfolio and more activity on social media, and if you, dear reader, are somehow in a position to hire an animal-focused designer/director, let me know!!! But ultimately I know that whatever comes next will be from God, and it’s into His care that I will go.
Spring has come, summer is on its way, and it’s a natural time for new starts. My brother, in fact, just got engaged and I’m very proud of him :) And more proud of his fiancé for saying yes! It’s a time of change for all of us, and for once in my timid life it feels welcome. May it bring good things!
Thanks for your readership, and thanks to the staff of Shining Isle/Wingfeather for giving me my chance! Back into the wayfaring times we go -
-dh
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