Hey Bloggerfolk!
Oohf. Wow! It has been a rough couple of weeks over here. I’ve already described my ongoing art funk in my previous post, but between now and then I was also snowed in for Too Long, got sick, and have been dealing with probably the biggest bout of Worry that I’ve experienced in a long time. Can’t say it’s been fun, but I can say that I’m ready for February and to try again with a new month. February brings the Super Bowl, Ash Wednesday, an early spring - the wheels of the calendar finally becoming unstuck from the frozen mud.
I’ve had a bunch of horrible art days that really made me doubt my ability to draw but eventually I turned a corner and began drawing clouded leopards that did not suck. As with most of my problems I think I was just overthinking it - watching a lot of Jungle Book clips showed me that even the simplest execution of proper animal anatomy can really go a long way. Around that time I also discovered that colored pencil touched up with mechanical pencil was a combo I really enjoyed - it felt just loose enough to be fun without becoming cluttered. I’ve put myself under a lot of pressure throughout this whole project since my (secret) goal was to make a zine out of all these leopard drawings. One that would be impressive. So impressive, in fact, that people would pay real money to buy it.
That was a bad idea. I’ve since learned you really should never broadcast, and especially never monetize, your first attempts to learn any skill. I felt like I had my future viewers always looking over my shoulder, shaking their heads in regret at their woeful purchase of these crappy clouded leopard drawings. I thought about scrapping the project altogether, but it felt wrong to end a project in defeat when perhaps it could be coaxed beyond its ugly teenage phase and into responsible adulthood. I’m glad that I stuck with it, so I’m not left with a sour taste for the whole affair. And while I’m still planning on printing the zine, I think I’ll be distributing it non-profit and just having people pay for shipping/printing. Should have a fun mix of crappy and non-crappy drawings, probably one of my more raw collections where I’m fine to show a few mistakes rather than just my best hits.
More details to come - paid members, you’ll get a copy totally free (no shipping fee) too! Speaking of paid members, I’m pausing my paid Substack tier for at least the next couple months. That means that all paid members will retain their subscriptions, not be charged, and any months left on an annual subscription will resume AFTER the break. I’m thankful for your support these past couple months! But as funding here at the Roost has been historically project-based, I feel like it’s right to pause until I’m back in the middle of a project, releasing paid posts consistently, etc. Thanks for carrying me over into the new year, and hope you enjoy the clouded leopard tiny-project!
I hope to be back soon with details on how you can get my finished zine, but until then I hope your February is off to a better start!
best,
dh
PS: Have you read this great interview with Patrick McHale (creator of Over the Garden Wall)? Sorry for the non sequitur but I’ve had it open on my computer for weeks, always forgetting to mention it in a post, and now I can finally close the tab.
